Sunday, August 26, 2018

ask and yee shall receive

Ask And Yee Shall Receive...

and don't ignore it when you get it.

or "Last Minute Thinking Through My Fingers"

Hello all. Hope you are well. I am trying to get a post in before classes start August 27th. I'm taking a full load and if you add income generation (i.e. a job), possible extracurricular activities, and trying to maintain an active lifestyle on top of that I do not foresee having much free time for blog posts in the next few months.

Note: I think this is about the, no lie, sixth version of this post since I started writing it a week and half ago.

Asking...and ignoring

There is someone in my day-to-day life that has had plenty of wake-up calls but has barely altered their lifestyle in light of them. This same person asks me for advice all of the time. I'll offer advice and then the person promptly disregards what I say. I have gotten to the point of wondering why they even bother asking me what I think about anything. It's just a huge fucking waste of both our times. Actually, I think it's just because the person likes the sound of their own voice. It really pisses me off.

I asked. I received. I ignored.

Alas, I have no right to be pissed off because I did the exact same thing. I reached out and asked for advice and promptly received very clear answers. Maybe someday I will fully explain what happened but all you need to know is that the solution to my problem was very practical and made sense. However, instead of following the advice, I chose to do the opposite and it fucked me.

On top of that, some shit went down about two weeks ago or so that was a huge fucking wake-up call for me. It was a big slap upside the head and reminder that "You ain't there yet, dummy!" A lot of insecurities and issues I thought I had worked through were still there. They popped up to make themselves known and shout "We're still here asshole!" It was definitely a wake-up call.

Yet, the thing about wake-up calls is, as time passes, they become easier and easier to ignore. All I can say is that I am doing my best to be proactive and not ignore it.

Vegan Pizza Is Bullshit

I'm over the whole Vegan/Plant-based thing. I am hesitant to go into all of the details surrounding why I jettisoned that way of eating. I will just say that it's not because it was too hard. It has never been easier to eat a plant-based diet...especially in Southern California. I don't think I'm being lazy. Like I said, it is really easy to eat a plant-based diet. I've been eating mostly plants for months. I still plan on eating mostly plants. I don't have any plans on shoveling massive amounts of beef, pork and poultry into my face any time soon. I've made quite a bit of progress on my health and fitness in the last few months and have no plans on undoing it.

I will say this though: I am really sick of all these bullshit labels (any kind of -ism, -ist, and -ian) we put on ourselves. Social media is rife with ideological purity and very often if you don't have the right label or fall in line perfectly with someone else's ideology you're suddenly "terrible" or "garbage". It is by no means unique to "Left" or "Right" culture. I don't care what you're calling yourself. All I care about is if you are a good person? Do you treat others well? Even online?

Beyond the self-labeling, I absolutely cannot stand dogma (in the definition of dogma as a "prescribed doctrine proclaimed as unquestionably true by a particular group") and dietary dogma is beyond annoying.

As far as day-to-day eating goes, I'm fairly convinced that Michael Pollan has it right. It's nice and simple and free from dogma:

  1. Eat food. [note: Michael means real food, not processed junk.] 
  2. Not too much. 
  3. Mostly plants.

A final word on diet

I'm still very curious about the relationship between diet and health. I intend to put as much Rich Roll, No Meat Athlete, Found My Fitness (with Dr. Rhonda Patrick), Chris Kresser, and Robb Wolf into my ear-holes and eyeballs as I can handle. I'll figure it all out for myself at some point. Ok. I've said what I needed to say. I'm shutting up about diet from here on out.


I'm coming to terms with the fact that this is just a personal blog. I'm not really promoting or selling anything, nor am I an expert in anything. As I mentioned in the last post, I'm over the whole "challenge" concept. So, I'm moving away from what I originally envisioned this all to be. From now on I plan on talking about the things I really nerd out on like: un*x (I've been having a lot of fun playing around with the BSDs again), occultism, and all-things Japan. I understand that if I'm talking about FreeBSD one day, the Rose Cross Ritual the next, and then ranting about how expensive college text books are after that, very rare is the person who would be interested in all of those topics.

Basically, what I'm trying to say is, shit gon' get weird around here. You have been warned. 😆

This is all being said with an understanding that blogging has, for the most part, been a dead medium for years. I hope to branch out into different platforms to supplement/compliment anything posted here, but that is still a ways off.

Anywho, I have a ton of things I need to do before tomorrow so I'll end this here.

Peace☮ + Pizza🍕

Wednesday, August 1, 2018


I R Back

or "DAMN I needed that break!!!"

or "Cro who?"

Quick Recap

I had to read two articles for my English class: "Is Google Making Us Stupid?" by Nicholas Carr (Atlantic, Jul/Aug2008, Vol. 302 Issue 1) and "Meet Your iBrain" by Gary Small and Gigi Vorgan (Scientific American, Oct/Nov2008, Vol. 19 Issue 5). I realized I was experiencing the exact same negative side effects of too much internet use that I was reading about in the articles. I was experiencing what Small called "techno-brain burnout". I was stressed out, depressed and feeling unable to cope for absolutely no reason whatsoever. My financial situation could be better but things were going well and life was generally getting better. However, my outlook on life was gloomy and I was excessively negative for absolutely no reason. I was having a hard time coping with even the slightest setback.

So, I decided to step away from social media for a second. All social media apps were removed from my phone and social media links were removed from my toolbar. Over the last two weeks it is funny how often my fingers instinctively started to type "twitter" into the tool bar.

I won't lie, some days were pretty rough. Here and there I felt antsy and hated feeling like I was completely out of the loop. It wasn't easy. Sometimes I was pretty much like:

What I did while I was "away"

It was shocking. Not looking at Twitter compulsively gave me A LOT of extra time (especially after I got all caught up on my coursework). While on this self-imposed exile from social media a lot of things that had been put on the back burner got done. I finished several books that had been sitting around half-read for quite a while. I cleaned up my room something I had been talking about doing for over a year. While cleaning my room I stumbled across another loose-end with my Mom's estate that needed to be tied up. I also completed a five day water-only fast* that I had been meaning to do for some time.

Besides schoolwork and reading I also watched some YouTube videos. I stumbled across the Inspire Nation channel after looking for any videos with Mitch Horowitz. I had just finished Mitch's book Occult America: White House Seances, Ouija Circles, Masons, and the Secret Mystic History of Our Nation before my brief respite from social media.

In reference to this particular video, I started working on the three experiments mentioned at about 39:16: Stronger Every Day (Practice of the Coué method created by Émile Coué where you repeat the mantra "Every day in every way, I'm getting better and better", or "Day by day, in every way, I'm getting better and better", 20 times in the morning when waking and 20 times while drifting off to sleep), The 3-step Miracle, and the Definite Chief Aim (which Mitch also turned into a book, The Miracle of a Definite Chief Aim. It is one of the books I read during my break- I still need to go back and do all of the exercises).

Basically I've really gotten into New Thought and some other stuff that I never thought I would be interested in. So, I'm one of those weirdos now.

30 Day Plant Based Challenge?

I'm pretty much over 30, 60 or 90 day challenges. I don't think I'm going to do any more of them unless something really catches my eye. I'm all for doing experiments and trying new ways to be the best I can be, but I'm over the whole "challenge" format.

That doesn't mean I'm giving up on the plant-based challenge. In fact I'm taking it one step further and am drawing a line in the sand. On Tuesday, the 24th, I decided to go 100% plant-based from then on. I have too many good reasons to do it and the reasons not to do it (for me, at least) are...well, weak. If you've followed this blog at all, obviously this is a personal decision. I'm not big on pointing my finger and looking down on other people...well, MOST other people (tee-hee). It's just something I need to do.

Note: I will do my best to order plant-based food when eating out but if I accidentally order something with an animal product I won't freak out and I am not going to waste it. I will just try to be more careful and aware of what I'm eating next time. I say this because I love trying new Japanese dishes (well, East Asian cuisine in general) and bonito (slipjack tuna), as the central ingredient in most dashi stock, is ubiquitous in Japanese cuisine. I am almost certain I will be eating foods that used bonito in the cooking process at some point. I will do my best to avoid it.

In Conclusion

Overall, the break was great. If you're feeling stressed and burned out for no real reason I'd suggest looking at your social media usage. You might be in need of a break from the Tweeters, Book of faces, and Instantgrahams too.

* Quick note: Five days is the absolute upper limit of doing a water-only fast without medical supervision. I felt great during the fast (well, the first day was pretty crappy) but I would never go past five days without a professional monitoring me! You shouldn't either.

Positive Thoughts + Potatoes

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