Thursday, June 14, 2018

Habit Change

Habit Change





I've been listening to the No Meat Athlete podcast A LOT lately. I've been listening to one episode in particular over and over. It's the January 4th, 2018 episode entitled The 5 Big Keys to Habit Change. I might do some challenges here and there again but I am switching my focus to forming new or changing habits. For example I don't want to do a "Longevity Diet" challenge. I want to make that diet the way I eat for the rest of my life.

One of the points that Matt Frazier brings up is that if you changed one habit a month for three years, that would be 36 new/changed habits. You would almost be a completely different person at the end of those three years. This episode was from a NMA Academy seminar. I hope it is alright to list out the 5 Big Keys. Please go listen to the podcast if you are even remotely curious about this. I have nothing but the upmost respect for Matt Frazier and Doug Hay. Go check No Meat Athlete out!

The 5 Big Keys are as follows:

  1. Have to want to change or feel a need to change. There needs to be an emotional connection.
  2. Don't start immediately, have patience. Give preparation and planning time so you do not build a habit of starting something new only to fail and quit.
  3. Change one only one thing at a time. You can plot out which change you want to make first in advance.
  4. Start out with small steps.
  5. Something to keep you accountable. Could be as simple as a piece of paper with a list you check off at the end of the day.

So I've decided to that for 30 days after Sunday June 17th, 2018 I will eat only as outlined in The Longevity Diet. I know I should only be establishing one habit at a time but I will also work on adding daily stillness/breath meditation back into my routine. I am only going to start out with a 10 minute session to reestablish the practice. I do not see how this could be overwhelming.

To keep accountable for these habit changes I will turn on the automatic tweets for my Insight Timer app and I will do a weekly post with a visual food diary of what I ate. I read The 4 Hour Body many moons ago I remember where Tim talks about the "flash diet" and how about taking a pic of your food before you eat it act as an "instantaneous intervention and forced people to consider their choices before the damage was done."

Beyond all of that I need to head out of town to help a friend move over the weekend. I might not be around much and I'm planning on leaving my laptop at home. Then, school starts up on Monday. Oh, and I need...ok, needed, to get a job a while ago. So, long story short, I'm not sure how active I will be on the media de sociales for a while. However, I do have a sizable queue of daily sleaze, fantasy and sci-fi art tweets ready to go...as long as Crowdfire doesn't mess them up.

Unless I post something in the meantime (which is doubtful), I will be back here with the first weekly update on Sunday, June 24th, 2018.

Peace + 93s

Cro


Monday, June 4, 2018

90 Day Plant-Based Challenge Weekly Roundup 03

90 Day PBD Weekly Roundup No. 3

or "How I Am A Complete Failure, Please Kill Me Now. Please."

or "How I'm Bouncing Back From Failure"




Sorry For The Delay


The reason will become evident in a moment.


What I ate for the week of 03.21-03.27


I ate only potatoes (Russets and sweet potatoes) for the second week in a row. I was feeling pretty good too. I decided to add some low sodium hot sauce about halfway through the week and noticed that the weight that had been steadily falling off suddenly stopped. It seems even 350mg of sodium was enough for my body to retain water. All in all, I was doing damn good and then...


Then I Fucked Up

My entrance to the failure expressway started on Memorial Day. I should have been beginning the second phase of the "diet" by eating nutrient-dense veggie stews. However, since it was Memorial Day I decided to get some veggie dogs. (Note: How remembering fallen armed service members become equated with eating hot dogs and hamburgers is beyond me but...) I have honestly preferred veggie dogs to regular hot dogs for many moons so I would have been getting veggie dogs regardless of trying to eat a plant-based diet. I purchased some Lightlife Tofu Pups because they have the least ingredients (and I know what all of those ingredients are) and are only 50 calories a pop...er pup. I got some Ezekiel 4:9 bread to go with it. This all sounds healthy right? Well, I ate six of them. I still only wound up consuming about 1500 calories for the whole day but I was RAVENOUS. The veggie dogs triggered all sorts of nuclear-powered food cravings out of nowhere. I could have eaten six more!
Long story short, going from very bland food to hyper palliative food in such a short time set me up for failure. I ate six more tofu pups the next day with the biggest salad I have ever eaten before. I was still insanely hungry. By Wednesday my willpower was completely broken. I consumed fast food on a trip back up to my hometown and ate horribly the whole time I was there. The ninety day challenge was and is a #FAIL.

An Anal-y-sis.

I had several factors working against me. The two greatest components to the failure were that I didn't really have a support system in place and I was making too many huge changes all at once. As far as the support system, please don't get me wrong. I appreciate the hell out of every single kind and encouraging word I got! I was making too many significant dietary changes all at once to not have some sort of daily hand-holding in place. Penn Jillette, Matt Donnely and other people doing the "Cray-Ray" diet were in contact with Ray Cronise almost daily. If not in contact with him they knew he was watching their blood pressure and weight readings regularly.

Although it is not their fault I also have people in my personal life who were not supportive at all. In fact a couple of them seemed to be actively working against me. Oddly enough they are the least healthy people I know too...

Where Do I Go From Here


I am almost done reading Valter Longo's The Longevity Diet*. I highly recommend it even though I have not finished it yet. (Note: I'm slightly skeptical of the "fasting-mimicking diet" he pushes in it- why not just do a water fast? Maybe a fasting-mimetic diet IS all it's cracked up to be but it is also damned expensive. I should point out that Longo receives no financial gain from the sale of the diet product though.) Between the longevity diet and some of Michael Greger's guidelines in How Not To Die* I have a good game plan for how to eat. I should be able to keep compliant with the longevity diet because it allows, nay prescribes, 2-3 servings of low-mercury seafood a week, 3 tablespoons of olive oil daily (something missing from all of the other plant-based diet books I'd read recently) and a daily ounce of nuts/seeds. I plan on eating an egg or two here or there. I will still avoid dairy and all other animal products.

All in all I lost 22.4 lbs in those three week which is A LOT! I've put some of it back on but I haven't gone completely off the rails as far as what I'm eating. Come Hell or high water, the fat will continue to come off.

That said, even though I am done with the ninety day challenge I still have a blood test coming up in August that needs to show some vastly improved numbers, a waistline that needs some shrinking and blood pressure that needs to come down quite a bit. I'd like my kidneys to keep functioning, my dick to keep working and, oh yeah, I don't want to stroke out. I might have failed on my challenge but I must still work towards improving my health. Quitting and going back to how I was eating before just isn't an option. I will post my (improved!) results from the blood tests and more biometrics in August.

I am completely open to suggestions about how to keep culpable for what I eat. If you'd like me to still do a weekly "wrap-up" post about what I'm eating let me know. Or do you think daily snaps of what I ate would be good (I can provide snaps info I you want)? If you have any ideas please let me know.

In the meantime I need to figure out some new thirty day challenges.


Love + Will

Cro



*Amazon associate's link

Monday, May 21, 2018

90 Day Plant-Based Challenge Weekly Roundup 02

90 Day PBD Weekly Roundup No. 2



For this week I went a little extreme. I'm doing a mono-diet of just plain, whole potatoes for two weeks. This includes all the various edible tubers dubbed "potatoes" from russets to sweet potatoes and everything in between. I will mainly be eating sweet potatoes and baked russets to keep it simple.

This is not a "Potato Diet" or "Potato Hack"

The whole idea behind a two-week mono-diet is to help reset your flavor pallet by completely removing added salt, sugar and oil. Learning to enjoy the natural flavor of foods is the ultimate goal behind the mono-diet and any weight loss is a welcome side-effect.

White potatoes became fairly maligned at some point but they pack quite a few nutrients and when combined with sweet potatoes most (if not all) nutritional needs should be met. Hell, Andrew Taylor only ate potatoes for a year and was perfectly fine. This is only two weeks however and not meant to be a permanent situation.

The mono-diet doesn't need to be potatoes either. It could be brown rice, or beans or many other things. Potatoes are just convenient and VERY filling. You can only eat a few and then you're full. It's next to impossible to overeat plain whole potatoes.

A much greater variety of foods (via nutrient dense veggie stews) are added to the diet after the first two weeks...and I am greatly looking forward to that!

What I ate for the week

Sorry for getting lazy with the images but once you've seen one baked Russet or sweet potato you've seen them all 😆. My caloric intake was very low again. Don't worry, I have plenty of stored energy on my body. I'm in no danger of wasting away any time soon.

 I only tried to eat when I felt really hungry and plain potatoes are filling...and really boring. I am also taking 1000 mcg of b-12 and 5000 IU of  Vitamin D3 daily.


  • Day 8 Monday, May 14th: 3 cups of coffee, 3 Wendy's plain baked potatoes. 
  • Day 9 Tuesday, May 15th: 3 cups of coffee, 26 oz. of baked russets.
  • Day 10 Wednesday May 16th: 5 cups of coffee, 16 oz. of baked russets. (I was not feeling too great today so was not that hungry- this might have been the worst day of the week).
  • Day 11 Thursday, May 17th: 3 cups of coffee, 23 oz. baked russets.
  • Day 12 Friday, May 18th: 3 cups of coffee, 1 'bucks venti Americano, 10 oz baked russets, 15 oz. sweet potatoes.
  • Day 13 Saturday, May 19th: 3 cups of coffee, 9 oz sweet potato, 24.5 oz. baked russet.
  • Day 14 Sunday, May 20th: 3 cups of coffee, 24.85 oz baked russets. 

In summation


I weigh myself everyday and was down .6 lbs yesterday so of course today I am up .6 lbs. About ten years ago or so I lost a lot of weight and started eating what I thought was a healthy diet. My official weekly weigh-in was every Friday. I weighed myself daily much like now and my weight would ALWAYS be up on Friday. I wonder if there is some weird psychological factor to it.

I'm down 6.2 pounds this week and 17.4 pounds over all. My systolic blood pressure has gone from hypertension to pre-hypertension. I still need to get it lower but it has only been two weeks and I'm happy as long as it is headed the right direction.

I really felt crappy at times during the first five days of the mono-diet. My thoughts were really cloudy and jumbled for a couple of the days but fortunately I was able to take it easy. I'm feeling fine now though.

That's it for this week. I will check back in next week.

Peace and Weenies 🌭
CroDeNO 

Monday, May 14, 2018

90 Day Plant-Based Challenge Weekly Roundup 01

90 Day PBD Weekly Roundup No. 1

or "Who Knew Taco Bell Wasn't That Good For You?"



Hah! It wasn't that bad.

Blood!

I got the results from my blood test(s) and they weren't what I expected, but they were not surprising either. My LDL cholesterol was okay (76) but my HDL was low (24). That is throwing off the ratio of LDL to HDL to make it higher than it should be (5.1). My Uric Acid was 9.2 mg/DL and the healthy range is 4.0 to 8.0 mg/DL. Sooo, that meanse my kidneys aren't happy. I'm assuming this has to do with high blood pressure. This marker kind of freaked me out because I DON'T WANT GOUT!

My C-Reactive Protein (inflammation marker) was 7.5 mg/L which is an indicator of "higher relative cardiovascular risk". Well, great. Again, though, I'm not really that surprised.

My Vitamin D was 26 ng/mL which is considered an "insufficient" level of Vitamin D. Time to start taking some Vitamin D3 and get out in the sun.

As long as I stick to the whole food plant based eating (and take some D3) all of these potential problems should be fixed. I will know when I take another test in twelve weeks or so. If they are not fixed by then I'll make a trip to the doctor and get on the meds I need to get on.

90 Day Challenge Goal

The two main goals of this 90 day challenge are to lose a lot of fat and to change the food that I habitually eat (and desire to eat) in my day to day life.

What I ate

This will probably like it's not that much food...and it isn't. I have A LOT of stored energy so I'm trying to tap into that as much as possible. I could probably live for a month off the fat in my left tit alone. I will be fine with a restricted caloric intake for a while. 

  • Day 1 Monday, May 7th: 3 cups of coffee, petite sweet potatoes (with ground flaxseed and roasted sesame seeds), steamed spinach (with roasted sesame seeds), B-12 1000 mcg.
  • Day 2 Tuesday, May 8th: 3 cups of coffee, half a chipotle veggie burrito with guac (no cheese or sour cream), steamed asparagus, steamed spinach, 1 oz raw pecans.
  • Day 3 Wednesday, May 9th: 3 cups of coffee, Trader Joe's Sriracha Baked Tofu, 2 Taco Bell Fresco Bean Burritos.
  • Day 4 Thursday, May 10th: 1 Startbuck's Venti Americano, 2 cups of coffee, 2 Wendy's Baked potatoes (no sour cream, only chive). 
  • Day 5 Friday, May 11th: Starbucks Venti Americano, 650 g (before cooking) sweet potato, 1 bag of Uncle Ben's whole grain brown rice. 
  • Day 6 Saturday, May 12th: Starbucks Venti Americano (6 shot), 3 Taco Bell fresco bean burrito, Taco Bell large unsweetened iced tea. 
  • Day 7 Sunday, May 13th: Coffee 3 cups (not pictured), Suja life drink (50 calories), Uncle Ben's brown rice, Simply Balanced Organic Low Sodium Three-bean Blend Kidney, Pinto & Black Beans, Hot curry sauce.

The odd thing I noticed was, even when I was in a sizable caloric deficit, on the days that I ate Taco Bell I didn't lose any weight. In fact once I was up a pound the next day when I stepped on the scale. I also noticed that the food was not that filling. It actually made me ravenous for more...Taco Bell. Even though they have decent plant-based options, I'm ultimately going for whole foods (and not the market, either). I think it's best to avoid Taco Bell from now on.

The cravings for greasy food were insane at times. It was almost too much. The impulse to get some loaded fries, pizza or whatever was relentless. I'm hoping the cravings become a little more manageable after I adjust what I am consuming.

In summation


After weighing myself this morning I'm down 11 lbs overall. I'm 70 days sober. I have 1 consecutive day of doing zazen after missing a couple of days. Oops. Time to get back on that Zen horse! My blood pressure has barely come down but I will give it a little more time after I further reduce my sodium intake.

That was the first week. I kept it plant-based but am not really happy with my general diet. I still consumed too much processed, salty, hyper-palatable food with oil and refined grains. I could have eaten more whole foods and consumed far more bulk. I am using the fact that I was out of town for a few days as an excuse though. For the next two weeks I am going to go a little extreme (note: no more extreme than the daily 1-man eating competitions I was engaged in). If anyone has heard Penn Jillette talk about how he lost his weight or read his book Presto! you might have a good idea of what I plan on doing. 

Viva la potatoes!


Tuesday, May 8, 2018

30 Days 30 Posts: Day 30

Day 30

or "It's Over!"

or "This has been...an experience."



I joke. This hasn't been bad at all. I have tried to start a 30 Day Blog challenge at least twice before and failed miserably both times. I'm really glad I saw it through to the end this time. I am also very thankful for every single person who read this while the challenge was going on. That and the social media interactions (you all know who you are- and the blog comments by Whiskey) gave me the encouragement I needed to finish it.

Today I went and got my blood drawn for the 90 Day whole-food PBD challenge. I ordered the Comprehensive Wellness Profile (lipids, liver, kidneys, whatnot), C-Reactive Protein (inflammation), Hemoglobin A1c (diabeetus), and Vitamin D 25 Hydroxy Tests. I'm hoping I have the results by the first of the "weekly recap" posts about my progress with this challenge.

As far as how the 90 day challenge is going, so far so good. Of course it has only been one day but I am feeling really good about it. I'm tracking everything in the Cron-O-Meter app and following Dr. Greger's Daily Dozen (Android | iPhone) as a general guide. I'm also trying to adjust and modify what I am eating as I read more of Julieanna Hever and Ray Cronise's Plant-Based Nutrition (Amazon Associate link).

Topic: Post a picture of yourself from today and five good things that have happened since you started this challenge.


Ok. Here is the photo of myself...

Tee-Hee


First Good Thing

The most important good thing is that I finally was able to get rid of my Mom's house. It was such an odd situation because there had been a fire which did extensive damage but it didn't totally destroy the house. The house was a huge drain financially, mentally and emotionally. I am glad to not have to deal with it and the mobile home park where it was located any longer. I need to get a few more things out of the house and then I'm completely done with it.

Second Good Thing

I decided to sober up (*cough* again). It was just time to face the fact that I can't drink like a "normal" person. As of right now I have 64 days and am feeling great!  I do still need to get into some sort of recovery program though because I will slowly convince myself I can drink again and I will be right back where I was. I've been here before, BUT I am sober and am not going to drink today.

Third Good Thing

I was able to sign up for the classes I needed for the Summer session. I am completely back on track as far as school goes. I have a ways to go to get my Associate's and the certificates I want, and even further to go to get my Bachelor's but I'm headed the right direction.

4th Good Thing

I got consistent about my zazen practice. I have 62 consecutive days of staring at a wall under my belt! The benefits might not be profound but they are there. It is subtle but I can tell I am a bit more equanimous than I was before.

Fifth Good Thing

I celebrated my birthday! I got many, many, many more happy birthday wishes than I expected! I ate greasy pizza that was covered with all sorts of meats and huge piece of carrot cake. I also received some Amazon gift cards (always a winner), a Star Wars K-250 Force Link 2.0 figure and a copy of Far Cry 5 as gifts. It made turning 102 years old very memorable.

That will do it for this 30 day blog challenge! Thank you everyone who helped by reading these inane, narcissistic posts! I will be back in a week or so to show you how terrible my blood markers are and how disgustingly healthy I'm eating!


WOOOOOO!!!

via GIPHY


Monday, May 7, 2018

30 Days 30 Posts: Day 29

Day 29

Next 30 Day and 90 Day Challenges



I was able to sign up for some of the classes I wanted. I did not realize that for the summer session you are only allowed to take a maximum of ten units. Japanese 1 will have to wait until the Fall. I was able to enroll in English 1 and COSA 50 (the first required course in the Web Development curriculum). They're both online classes so I am pleased as punch.

Yesterday I mentioned that I was starting a 90 day challenge tomorrow. I am actually going to start it today. I am going to eat a whole food plant-based diet for the next ninety days. No added oil. No added sugar. No refined grains (NOTE: white rice is a refined grain but I am allowing myself that). No added salt (although I will sparingly use some Bragg Liquid Aminos in a spray bottle here and there). In general I will avoid highly processed foods.

The reason I am starting a day early is there is an anime convention I want to go to in August. My friends and I are planning on going on Sunday, August 6th. If I do start my 90 day challenge tomorrow I won't have any dietary constrictions when I'm there. That means I can pull a truly appropriate "rare and appropriate" and eat whatever I want. After 90 days of eating a whole-food PBD it will be interesting to see what it is that I actually "want". I hope the Okamoto Kitchen truck is there. They should be. They seem to be at events like that- and they even have vegan options if for some reason I don't feel like eating Japanese Pork Belly Fries or Japan Fried Chicken.

To keep myself true I will post a weekly update with pictures of what I ate everyday. I will likely refrain from posting my weekly progress as far as weight, measurements and blood pressure are concerned. I will save that for the end. I am planning on getting a blood test tomorrow (or Wednesday) with a Comprehensive Wellness Profile (lipids, liver, kidneys, glucose, etc.), C-Reactive Protein, and Hemoglobin A1c tests. I plan on getting the same tests after the 90 days is up to see if there is a difference.

I also said I would start a new 30 day challenge on Tuesday. I've decided to do #30DaysOfYee on my Instagram. It will just be thirty random pictures with a theme...of sorts.

That's going to do it for today! Only one more day to go!

Sunday, May 6, 2018

30 Days 30 Posts: 28

Day 28

or "I didn't do shit today"


Topic: Bullet your entire day.

  • Woke up and made coffee while listening to Matt and Mattingly's Ice Cream Social (podcast).
  • Messed around on Twitter and shopped a pic of @kittykatluna_ for the the 2018 XBIZ Cam Awards contest.
  • Made another cup of coffee and zoned out to twitter while listening to the Drew Carey episode of WTF.
  • Made another cup of coffee and hung out in Luna's chat room.
  • Steamed some brussels sprouts and made stew-style Samyang spicy noods. Weird combo, I know. Ate said food.
  • Played Far Cry 5 while listening to the Rich Roll podcast. I played for WAYYYY too long.
  • Washed all the dishes I used when making the spicy ramen and brussels srpouts. 
  • Printed out the general education requirements for an associate's degree, CSU general education-breadth and the Web Development curriculum guide. After printing these out I realized I had already printed this all out months ago.
  • Looked at the LBCC Summer Class Schedule and figured out which classes I want/need to get for this summer session. Basically, the more online classes the better for me. It is so much more convenient. I'm hoping for 13 units- 2 online classes and one on campus.
  • Broke down some cardboard boxes and threw them into the recycling bin. They had been in my room for far too long.
  • Looked through my external hdd for a while while listening to more Ice Cream Social (I'm really behind on episodes). Made another pic for the XBIZ contest tomorrow.
  • Began working on this.
  • I will play some more Far Cry 5 after I'm done with this post until I can fall asleep. IF I can fall asleep.
Not a very eventful day but...that's it.

Only two more days until this challenge is done! I'm firing up the next two challenges (a 90 day and a 30 day) on Tuesday. Those will only require a weekly "summation" post I'm thinking. More on that tomorrow, maybe. 

Saturday, May 5, 2018

30 Days 30 Posts: Day 27

Day 27

or "More stuff I put in my eyeballs and ear-holes"


Topic: Your favorite TV show.


Even though it ended six years ago, House M.D. (or just House) is my favorite show of all time. I have watched it all the way through from beginning to end three times and have more or less watched it most of the way though via re-runs a couple more times. It doesn't matter how many times I've seen an episode, I can watch it again. I've watched it so many times I will never be able to see actors like Olivia Wilde as anybody but "Thirteen" or Omar Epps as Dr. Eric Foreman. Oddly enough Hugh Laurie isn't "stuck" as Gregory House in my head. That probably has to do with seeing him in A Bit of Fry & Laurie and Jeeves and Wooster

The Wikipedia entry for House describes the show as:
The series' main character is Dr. Gregory House (Hugh Laurie), an unconventional, misanthropic medical genius who, despite his dependence on pain medication, leads a team of diagnosticians at the fictional Princeton–Plainsboro Teaching Hospital (PPTH) in New Jersey.
That about sums it up! 🤣 This was completely my show. I am almost certain everyone else in my family hates/hated this show. None of my friends watched it or outright hated it. I think they're all crazy.

The website Polite Dissent had a medical analysis of each episode of House. It seemed pretty neat to watch an episode and then get an actual doctor's opinion on the symptoms and various diagnoses. Unfortunately at the time I am writing this post the site does not appear to be working anymore. 

I'm dead again tonight so that will do it for today. Three more days to go!

Friday, May 4, 2018

30 Days 30 Posts: Day 26

Day 26

or "Oops, I almost ran out of time to post again"

Gary Cooper at The Hemingway House. No. Really! That was his name.

I swear now that I'm home my routine is completely out of whack. Also, I ain't gonna lie, I am running out of steam on this blog challenge. I will see this through to the end though. I am excited about starting other thirty day challenges soon too! More on that later.

Today's topic: Post a photo of somewhere you've been.



I'll do more than that and post several photos of my trip to Key West for Fantasy Fest in 2012.

Note: I have almost no good pictures of the festivities at night because by then I was almost too drunk to stand every time. Should have been a clue I needed to sober up then, maybe? Hah.


Duval Street from my friend's balcony.


Mangrove.

Weird statues.

Papa.


Marilyn Monroe statue in front of the Tropic Cinema.



Hemingway House.


Banyan.


Hemingway House pool


Key West Cemetery.


Key West Cemetery


Duval Street from my friend's balcony.


Hemingway's library at the Hemingway House.


Polydactlyl cat at The Hemingway House.


Hemingway House.


Can't remember the exact beach but thought this looked cool.

I'd like to go back there someday soon! Especially The Hemingway House again. 🤣 Anyway, I will be back again tomorrow for day 27. Four more days!!!

Thursday, May 3, 2018

30 Days 30 Posts: Day 25

Day 25

or "I got a lot angrier about this topic than I anticipated."


or "Warning: I go on a bit of a rant"



It might just be because I'm not feeling a hundred percent after a stomach bug, not having slept well last night (again) and having to drive through Los Angeles traffic on the 405 but I'm not feeling ANY of these blog topics. SOS. HALP!

One topic caught my eye though. I know what is being asked but my mind immediately went somewhere else with it. Also, apparently I have stronger opinons on this than I originally thought. 🤣

Topic: Your opinion on cheating on people.


First off, what are you supposed to say here besides "I think cheating on people is totally fucked?!"

I will expand the topic out from just cheating on people in the traditional "fucking around behind your significant other's back" sense. Cheating in general is awful. Unless it's a video game (and it's not a multiplayer game that puts others at a disadvantage) cheating is utter bullshit. Whether it's cheating on a sexual/life partner, to get ahead of co-workers, or to "game the system" it's weak and lame. 

More than the fact that cheating is wrong, if you cheat, someone always knows. 

If you lie, someone always knows.

If you steal, someone always knows.

No, I'm not talking about God or Santa Claus.

YOU. You will always know if you cheat, lied, and stole. You have to live with yourself knowing that you've done it.

Between personal life experience, knowing others lives, and a healthy dose of a Buddhist worldview I am convinced unless you're a sociopath you're never going to be happy if you're a cheater, a liar or a thief. Almost everyone I know who acted unaffected by their own cheating, almost even to the point of being proud of it, were heavy abusers of intoxicants and/or very delusional. You'd have to be delusional to act like you're proud you know that you're a cheating piece of shit. So, besides it being wrong to cheat, you're not doing yourself any service by cheating either.

Maybe I'm delusional and there are people out there who cheat, aren't sociopaths, sober and are happy. I've never met them though.

That is my opinion on cheating.

Anywho, I'm back home. I get to sleep in my own bed for a few nights. I'm going to snuggle up to my Nintendo Switch and play some Skyrim. Or maybe I'll cheat on my Switch and play Farcry 5 on my laptop...

C'ya tomorrow!

Wednesday, May 2, 2018

30 Days 30 Posts: Day 24

Day 24

or "Another Short Post"

or "What I Put In My Eyeballs"


I'm still feeling kind of crappy and have to get up fairly early in the morning to head home for a couple days so this will be another short post.

Topic: What book are you reading (or what book did you just finish)?


I'll answer both. 

I'm currently reading The Lathe of Heaven by Ursula K. Le Guin. When I was younger I mainly read fantasy books and I then switched to reading mostly nonfiction books as some point. There are a lot of science fiction works I've been meaning to read for years and am finally getting around to it. I'm only about a third of the way through it but I like it so far.



I just finished Brad Warner's Sex, Sin & Zen. It might be my favorite book of his. I find how sex and sexuality is handled by any religion to be interesting. The book covers a wide variety of topics like polyamory, the third Buddhist precept (the vow to not misuse sexuality), sexual misconduct by spiritual leaders and has includes an interview with adult actress, Nina Hartley. If you think you have to become a eunuch to become a Buddhist this book might be for you.


Anyway, that's it for me tonight. I'll be back tomorrow!

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